Collapse

At the beginning of relationships I build a wall so that I don't get hurt. The relationship goes on, the wall gets harder to hold up. Until it collapses and I am myself. This switch has been the end of some relationships but it has also strengthened others.

We will see where Justin and I go from here. But right now I feel vulnerable and scared. It sucks. I didn't realize that I did this until last night. Looking back on past relationships, I can see that I've done the same. I could write a lot yet at the same time I don't want to because it exposes a side of me that I don't particularly like. One that is more vulnerable and it's not something I like to be.