The day is here...

...that I go for cryotherapy of those darn little abnormal cells. It was fun while it lasted but it's time to part.
I haven't blogged about this issue for a while because I wasn't too sure what to think of it myself. After reading though my blog again (I had to do this for my clinic journaling, I wanted to put in my clinic journal bits anf pieces from my blog when I wrote about clinic) I was quite struck by a comment that I made earlier. I wrote "...I either have cancer or I don't.." I thought that this was quite a bold statement and I felt rather hurt by it. I still do. I don't think that is a positive way of thinking and I've been working on changing it.
I believe that if it was only the abnormal cells I would be a little more at ease with this situation but there is also a mysterious pain that we've (meaning naturopath and I) been trying to figure out. This is a pain that bothers me monthly (most often all month long but that's been changing) and drains me of energy. Chronic pain really sucks. We have ideas of the source of the pain but nothing conclusive as of yet. I've been trying all sorts of natural approaches and though the painful periods are decreasing in length the pain is still there.
One thing that I found to be quite interesting was that the mono that I had 5 years ago showed up on body scan. It was actually the number one problem. Apparently my body is still fighting the mono and while it's busy doing that other viruses or bacteria are able to do their thing. So the new approach... get rid of mono so my body can focus on the other things that are going on within me.
Anyways today will be interesting. I got a voice mail from the gyno office yesterday saying that they still needed that referral from the doctor. A doctors referral only lasts 6 months. If that referral runs out you need to get a new one. This make sense... sort of. Because if you are seeing the specialist often and chose to get continued care though this specialist (as I am with my gyno) after 6 months you need to get a new referral even though you are still seeing the specialist and the specialist agrees that you should keep seeing them. I think it's a bit of a useless Dr.'s visit. But I didn't argue. I do what I have to do and went to the doctor in early September to make sure that this referral had plenty of time to get to the gyno's office (it only has 2 blocks to go... if it went by dust mite it should be there by now). So anyways I have to track down this referral. Hopefully the Dr's office forgot to fax the gyno's office and that I don't have to go in for a referral before 2:30 this afternoon. I am already missing class as it is. I don't want to miss more then I have to.
Anyways we'll see how things go. I have a feeling it will all work out.