Takeoff for Winnipeg in 3 hours!

The best part is, I haven't even started packing! I am still doing laundry and tidying up. This is unusual for me because usually by this time I am already packed and ready to go. If not I have a list (yes, I am a list person) with everything should bring. I have neither now. I am really happy though because exams are over and I'm starting my two week break! Not only that, I'd ordered Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows from Amazon.ca and I was a bit afraid that I wouldn't get it in time. But today I picked it up from the post office (I don't know how to unmirror the image with my web cam). Now I'll have Harry Potter to read on the plane, I'm also going to bring my crocheting things and my driving book (gonna take the test to get my L when I come back). So I'll have enough things to keep me busy on the plane (if not I'll listen to my music on my iPod).
So the exams went well. I know I got 92% on my orthopedic treatment oral practical... AND I PASSED A&P!!!!!! Woo Hoo! I am so happy about that one! Anyways as for systemics I am sure I passed those exams as well. I finished up my schedule for next term and it looks like I'll be able to work. Before I fly off I am going to e-mail my resume to a few places.
Last night, Eric and I went to our first Salsa dance :) The Empire Landmark Hotel is putting on salsa nights every Friday night and last night was opening night. So yesterday we went for the two hours of lessons prior to the dance and then we danced a little. We danced a little because 1. I had eaten a pound of cherries with my friend Maggie prior to going and was feeling quite sick 2. There were too many people on the dance floor and I was tired of getting kicked and bumped into. We still had a great time though! Jarome and Christal (friends of Eric's) met up with us and though they had never salsaed before, they gave it a try and it looked as if they had a good time as well!
Well I best start packing! If I have a chance to write while in the Peg, I will. Though I might be too busy swatting mosquitoes :)

Weird...

Usually after 15 hours of studying, I am so anxious I need to do some serious deep breathing to calm myself enough to sleep. Perhaps it's because I listened to my own advice... as a "stress buster" at work I suggest to my clients that every 30 minutes to an hour, they stretch a little (this can be done while still sitting at the computer) and take some deep breaths.
It's now 10:30 and I could keep studying. I think it's time to take a break though. I still feel strangely confidant about my A&P exam. 90% is almost looking achievable... Maybe it's the lack of sleep, I don't know. But it's strange.
I haven't studied for my other exams... and that could be cause for worry... but not tonight.

Soy cheese is like cat nip...

I've just found this out. I decided to be brave and try the soy cheddar cheese... now with my sensitivity to dairy, I've had to find replacements and this is one of them. I made myself some mac and cheese (creative, I know but quick and easy so I can get back to studying) and while I was eating it... my cat, Minette was pawing at me, climbing on me and mewing!
She'll usually make "puppy eyes" when someone is eating and sometimes she'll paw at your arm but it's always in a sweet, really cute way. Not this time though! I was like her jungle gym and she was on a quest for the ultimate cat treat. It was so weird. Finally I had to eat standing and put up with her trying to climb my leg (thank god she has no claws).
OK lunch break over, back to studying.

Me are tired.... no more studying!

You know it's time to take a break when you answer the phone and you can't even make a proper sentence. So far I've been going from 7:30am until now (7:55pm). It's the last push before exams. I've been mainly focusing on A&P because I need to get 90% to pass that bad boy. Normally this would be discouraging but for some reason, I am feeling quite positive about it (maybe it's because I am tired, I don't know).
On friday, I was to speak with the dean. As I was looking for him, I ran into the assistant dean (who is also my A&P teacher) and she told me that I wasn't doing so well in A&P, which I knew about because I keep track of my marks... anyways I didn't take offence or anything like that because I know she's helping us stay on the ball. I explained to her what I wanted to do, with retaking A&P 300 and she agreed that it would be a good idea but I should see how I do on my final exam. When I met with the dean, he told me not to worry about A&P 300 because in A&P 500 or 600, I forget, there's going to be an A&P review class to get us ready for boards. So if I am unclear on some things... I can get clear then. This had me rather upset because I didn't want added pressure. I guess I had my heart set on redoing A&P 300. I figured worse comes to worse, I can "try my best" on my final and if I happen to fail it, then I'll redo A&P 300.
But after a really good weekend, I thought about my little A&P situation and figured... what do I have to lose? I should really try to pass this exam and then if I pass and move onto A&P 400... Great :) if I don't pass... it's ok too because I don't mind redoing A&P. So it looks like I am in a win win situation. It's amazing what a change of attitude will do!
Tomorrow I have an other full day of studying... then on wednesday, there's an A&P review, a naturopathic appointment, a half day of studying (if I am feeling ready for my thursday exams, I will go to the Symphony of fire, or what ever it's called these days). Then on thursday I have my Systemic treatment oral practical and an orthopedic treatment written and oral practical. I also have salsa dancing lessons with Eric (which is going really well :) we've been practicing and he's also been teaching me some swing steps). Friday afternoon I have my A&P exam, so that means that I have the morning to do some last minute studying. A&P is my last exam so after that it's party time... well pack and get ready to fly off to Winnipeg the following day.
This week will go by quickly.

Solution?

Possibly... After talking to Mum last night and having an other damn good cry... she helped me see that even if I were to fail my finals coming up it wouldn't be such a bad thing. I've gone part time, therefore I have room for error now. If I don't understand the material, maybe it'll take a bit more time for it to sink in. This made me feel much better. I didn't think about it too much last night because I was too emotionally exhausted and couldn't be bothered to think.
Today, while in A&P class, I found out that they are switching A&P classes around. So in level 300, they will do the integumentary, respiratory and reproductive systems (instead of the integumentary, respiratory and endocrine systems, like we did), then in level 500, they will be doing the endocrine system (while we would have done reproductive then).
What does this mean to me? Well I'm failing A&P right now because I havn't bothered to give a fuck about studying for anything this term (amazed that I've gotten this far... but I have), therefore if I had to redo it... it would be great! The endocrine system is complicated as fuck because it's about hormones and where are the hormones found? Everywhere in the body... and what better way to learn it then to lean the systems where these hormones are found, learn a bit about the hormones and then, when all the systems leaning is done learn about the endocrine system and learn the hormones more in detail! I think she school realized that this would make more sense, that is why they've changed it... so yeah. Tomorrow I meet with the dean to see if next term I can take A&P 300, PD 400, Systemic Pathology 300 (which I failed and have to do again...), Pharmacology 300, NeuroPathology 300 and Sport treatment 300. I wouldn't do as many 400 courses as I would have liked but I think I didn't realize how lost I was in the program. Yep I hardly studied for anything in level 300... this is a problem because I don't know as much as I should... and though I am getting by now. It will bite me in the ass later. Hopefully after a break and then easing back into it, I'll be able to get back on it and do well as I was before I hit this rather large bump in the road. Anyways things seem to be working out... we'll just have to wait and see what the dean has to say about it tomorrow.
Until then, I am going to study for my systemic treatment written final which is tomorrow... I am not overly concerned about that one because I am going in with 82%. I also have an oral practical for that class next week which is worth 30% of my mark.

Love is just another four letter word...

It feels like I am chasing my tail

If I had a tail... mind you the coccyx could be a tail... sorta kinda maybe. I don't know what's up with me today I'm so freaking down it's really kinda stupid. Over what, I don't know. I just am. I should be happy... I woke up with Eric by my side this morning, 11 more sleeps until my trip to winnipeg, I have a loving family and cat, I've got an education... maybe that's my problem. It's an education in something I am not particularly interested in.
Quite a few people have been telling me that if I am not interested, then maybe I should quit and do something else. Well there's one problem... I'm a stubborn piece of work and I won't quit. I also think being an RMT will be beneficial (then again my sanity might be beneficial as well... but it could also be over rated). Then again maybe I am just convincing myself that being an RMT will be beneficial because I don't know what I'd do if I dropped out. Oh ouch dropped out... that stings. Fuck I don't know! I just want to cry about it but I can't seem to cry. Plus it's stupid to cry.
Maybe I should go for a walk with mum tonight... spend some quality mother daughter time while the guys are out having a guys night out (which Eric is going to as well... which is totally cute because none of my other bf's have ever gone to guys night out with my dad and bro and uncle.). Maybe.