Dream & A Good Day

No, I didn't dream that I had a good day... I actually did :) I can't remember when the last time was that I had a good day. I've had ok days and meh days but no good days... not since Paul and I broke up (or went on break...).
Funny enough though, it started with a really messed up dream that had me rather perplexed. I dreamt that I was pregnant with Paul's child and being things were/are rocky, we were debating what we should do with it. Being I was quite far along, abortion was not an option... it was more should we give it up for adoption or what... It was one of those dreams where you wake up and it seemed real. It took me a while to look around and look at myself to realize that it was just a dream and I wasn't pregnant. The relationship troubles however, are still real.
I think all of this stemmed from yesterday's conversation with Chera about how I was a porker when I came back from Australia and there was this one picture, a profile shot of me, and I looked rather pregnant. Paul also came up in our conversation... Chera couldn't believe that Paul and I weren't together... also mum mentionned him while I was making desert (which had nutmeg in it... mum said she had be putting cinnamon in it lately because Paul was sensitive to nutmeg...). So I guess while I was sweet dreaming, my mind put those two bits together and made a dream. Really now I don't mind it that much, because this is the only time I get to see Paul and even feel like I am with him. It freaking sucks being in this limbo. I wish I knew if we were together or not. But I understand that he needs time to figure things out and quite honestly, I am in NO rush to move on any time soon. It's not as if I am going to date other guys. Not only am I not interested because I just want to be with Paul, but starting a new relationship will just distract me from my studies (when really this should be my focus... only 18 more months left to go!).
So yeah the rest of my day was good... It was sunny so I am sure that was a great contributor. I managed to get my notes finished for Nutrition class 2 and for Systemic Orthopedic Pathology class 7 & 8 - it takes about an hour to 3 to study for each class... I also finished up my laundry and dusted. I decided to treat myself and see if I could find a beach dress for Maui. I did, along with a swim suit top and two tank tops. I found shoes that I like but decided to sleep on it and see if tomorrow I still want to get them... When you're broke, you REALLY have to think about everything you spend money on.
I ended up losing my wallet and realizing it only after I was at the skytrain station on my way to my Naturopath appointment. I ran like I'd never ran before and managed get my wallet from a girl that was comming out of the women's washroom. In the end I was late for my appointment and it was only 30 minutes long (which sucked cuz I know how frusterating it can be when people are late). Anyways I guess life has to keep me in check and a day can't go by when some shitty thing doesn't happen to me... but right now I don't really care. It was sunny today, I found a dress that I'd been looking for and I lost 3 pounds since last week... so it's a good day. Hopefully tomorrow will be just as good, if not better.

Uneventful

Well here we are, it's the weekend again and it's almost 6pm and I havn't started studying yet. Seems like there's a pattern here... Though today's only my first day of the weekend (I go to school saturdays but not on mondays) I havn't achieved much. This morning I went and tried this new Yoga place (Yoga in Daily Life) and I wasn't overly impressed. The majority of the course was spent laying on a matt (not mine it was the places' and it stank like feet) breathing and meditating. I've got too many ants in my pants to stay still for that long and ended the class exhausted.
It was nice though because I got to go with Chera and afterwards we went for a yummy breakfast at Locus... so all in all it was well worth it. It was good to catch up with Chera too. I hadn't talked to her since... probably before christmas.
I got home, had a nap, took over laundry (mum's sick... I told her to rest while I take care of laundry... she's now out with dad shopping for things to renovate the kitchen with... damn mothers never stay still! Even when they're sick... oh well love em anyways) and tidied up my room. I also made some morning glory muffins and healthied them up by putting less sugar - a cup less - and adding bran, nuts, raisins, carrots an other random goodies. The best part is, there's no oil or butter or margarine in these! It's apple sauce (how that works, I don't know but it tastes good and it's less fatty... yay!). I was tidying my desk (can't study at a cluttered work space) but I got side tracked and here I am now.
I've really got to bust ass though cuz this week I have 1 quiz and two mid quarter exams... it's not like last week which was 1 final, 1 mid term, 1 mid quarter and 1 quiz (I passed all of them except 1... I got 70% - 75% is a pass). I also really have to get going on my assignments too! BAH! I hate end of term! Well I best get to work cuz things won't get done on their own!

And poof it's gone...

For my grade 12 grad I got a beautiful opal ring from my Auntie Rose. Of course, today being the awesome day that it was (or not...) the dude upthere decided that I needed an other shit to fall on me, so while I was talking to my instructor, I looked at my hand only to notice that my ring was missing it's opal! Damn! I knew this might happen because opals are a soft rock and if you don't remove your rings while washing your hands or doing ANYTHING the rock will eventually fall out. Eventually was today :(
Anyways I am going to get it fixed when I am no longer a broke ass student... but I am gonna miss wearing it. Not only did it remind me of my auntie, but it was also the best for getting rid of guys at the bar. I go to bars or go out in general to have a good time, not to meet guys. So when there's a particular pesky bugger, I mention that I am engaged and I do the oh so typical glance at my hand. Most guys don't know that it's on the wrong hand... and most guys see something shiney and assume it's a diamond. And if he doesn't get it then, then I think I have permission to be an ass and tell him to fuck off... anyways all this to say I'll miss my ring.
Just writing about this cuz I don't want to write about how I am feeling and shit like that... plus I am sure you all can guess...

Represent

Sometimes you can't quite put into words how you feel... and sometimes you find a song that you really like and reflects how you feel... The following song is the one for me and I think is the official theme song of Paul and I's situation. Anyways that is all I am going to say about that! If I type any more it will be to vent and to put all of my frustration into four letter words!

"Waiting"

I wanna meet up with you
And show you what I'm thinking
I'll take you anywhere
That you wanna go
I'm sitting here bored and lonely and
You know that anytime you're free
To show me how you feel
We'll take it anywhere that you want to go
Anywhere that you wanna go

And I'd make it right if you wanted it
I want it back more than you know
I'd cross the line if you wanted it
I want you back

And I'm waiting for you
To get that feeling once again
Reunited in the end
And I've been waiting for you
To capture my imagination
Cuz I've been fooled by the illusions in my head
In my head

Now I realize I never had it so good
You took me anywhere I wanted to go
Now I'm sitting here dreaming of the days
When anytime I wanted I could show you how I feel
I can't go anywhere that I want to go
Anywhere that I want to go

And I'd make it right if you wanted it
I want it back more than you know
I'd cross the line if you wanted it
I want you back

And I'm waiting for you
To get that feeling once again
Reunited in the end
And I've been waiting for you
To capture my imagination
Cuz I've been fooled by the illusions in my head
In my head

I'll take it anywhere
I'll take it anywhere
I'll take it anywhere
I'll take you anywhere you wanna go

And I'd make it right if you wanted it
I want it back more than you know
I'd cross the line if you wanted it
I want you back

I'm waiting for you
To get that feeling once again
Reunited in the end
I've been waiting for you
To capture my imagination
Cuz I've been fooled by the illusions in my head

And I've been fooled by the illusions in my head
And I've been fooled by the illusions in my head

- TRAPT

I wish my boyfriend was this eager to get me to bed

Every night at 10:30pm, like clockwork, my cat will come find me in the house and mew and mew until I go to bed. If I don't go to bed by this time, she will mew and paw and get in my way until I do. I guess this is what happens when you always go to bed at the same time every night.

Wheezer

Wheezer, that's me :P with my cold it's given me a nasty cough which is causing me to wheeze... Kinda makes me laugh cuz it's a constant reminder of my neglecting myself lately.
On the up side, I managed to write that stupid essay on lifelong learning. Wasn't easy though! I never got into the swing of things and ended up writing a not as good as I would have liked essay. Oh well hopefully my presentation will make up for it. I was very impressed at my presentation skills (they were hidden deep down inside somewheres).
I've also raised more then 50% for the Underwear Affair :) I might even have to bump up my goal to $1 500. That would be cool :) Anyways if you havn't already done so (and even if you have) check out my personal page.
http://va07.uncoverthecure.org/site/TR?pg=personal&fr_id=1040&px=1008741
Otherwise there isn't much new to report. We celebrated Maggie's birthday yesterday and had a fabulous time! Section (3) is a really nice loungy/bar/restaurant type place with really good food! It was also kinda interesting to get to see everyone from highschool. Makes you realize that as much as you'd like to think that you've changed, you havn't. You just have more adventures under your belt. Speaking of adventures... 28 days to Maui :) Man I'm looking foreward to that trip :)
Anyways best get studying and best finish up my taxes (I am sure you can imagine how excited I am right now... my two favorite things... taxes and studying... in one oh so exciting night!)

Schoolies

Well I went to school today and it was rather uneventful. It was nice to see the girls again and it was good to be in class. I can already feel the stress of finals hanging over our class and they are still a month away.
I can't believe that we're almost a 1/3 finished our program! Well now that I've spent more then a second thinking about it, I can... I sure have learnt alot... and though time seems like it's flown by, it seems like it was ages ago that we last had finals. Woah yeah that does seeem like forever ago. Anyways enough getting lost in memories (or lack of... I havn't done much other then school between then and now).
So all in all, school was good, stil felt weak and coughing was worse then usual but I guess that's just my body trying to rid itself of this yuckyness. I'm starting to really look foreward to Maui :) Only 31 days left before I fly off to paradise for my week off with Pam & Maja... we're going to have SO much fun :) Anyways now I am going to head off to bed, work on my essay while curled up in my blankets and hopefully slip away into a good nights sleep (or I'll be too worked up to sleep and want to write my essay tonight... that HAS happened before).

Night