Procrastinating...

So I find myself procrastinating this morning... I have so much to study that it scares me. So I don't study anything at all. I hate it. I am also feeling uneasy because last Thursday I sent a letter to my doctor asking for a release of information to my naturopaths for the Gyno tests that took place a month ago (I still didn't know the results). Friday she calls, leaves a message asking me to call back. Nothing I can do until Monday but feel nervous. Monday I realize that she probably got my letter and is calling about that. Last time, when tests came back positive I just spoke to the receptionist who had already booked a gyno appointment for me. So that's probably what it is. I feel reassured. I call Monday, get the receptionist. She will pass along the message. No call back Monday. Tuesday, nothing (well on my cell, which is the number I gave her). This morning, a note on the kitchen table: Message for Janelle - Gyno. FUCK! I just want to cry, to be held. I want this shit to be over with. I either have cancer or not. None of this fucking around in between.
Bah! I am not going to study, I am going to clear my head so that I can be productive tomorrow.

Update: Managed to reach the gyno... Bad news: "Changes" in my test result. They want to take more... this includes a biopsy... Ouch! Good news: It's not an emergency! June 3rd is when I get to go next. I feel better. Still mildly upset. I want this to be over with. On the plus side the receptionist at the gyno office is REALLY nice and quite reassuring which makes this whole adventure a little less scary. Still I booked in to see Liam (hair stylist) today for some pampering.

Woah!

This stuff is crazy! I've alwaysed loved dance... to see dance and acrobatics combined like this gives me chills though. It's so amazing!

Technology is pretty cool

Alright so even though I have a laptop, a cellphone and an iPod, it doesn't mean I am that much of a techy. I'd heard of podcasts but never really had any interest in looking some up. I was mildly intrigued when Donna mentioned that she'd found one for running. It would be something I'd look up when I decided to start training for my 10k (which should be soon, I know).
So yesterday I read reading the Yoga Journal, there was this add, advertising free weekly practice podcasts with Jason Crandell. I thought this might come in handy... it's free yoga! I've always tried to follow the poses from the journal but I never know how long to hold them for an the flow of my yoga practices generally sucks cuz I have to keep referring at the photos.
Now I am terribly excited because I will be able to do yoga on the beach while in Hawaii. The thought of being on little beach, surrounded by natural beauty and warmed by the rays of the sun, wearing only shorts and doing yoga while the ocean water laps at my feet puts a huge smile on my face. Sure I will most likely be COVERED in sand and I am not a big fan of having sand mixed in with my sunscreen... but you know what... I don't think that'll matter too much. I'll be able to go body surfing afterwards to rinse it off. Ha ha oh life on vacation sucks :P

One my way for the day I find no sorrow.

Yesterday was a particularly difficult day. Systemic treatment class in the morning and just before class started Annette told me that the Dean wanted to see me at break. I knew why but still anxiousness rose in my chest. I was sick on Saturday, didn't call in to say i wasn't going to be in but instead texted Joy to ask her to let the prof and clinic supervisor know. She did and replied saying that they were pissed and wanted me to call. I figured fuck it! I am not going to call in, they know why I am not there and I don't want to call just to get reamed out. So I didn't call. I knew I'd end up in the Deans office for that.
Anyways while the talk wasn't as bad as I thought it may have been, REALLY sensitive issues came up. Ones that I have been guarding and dealing with slowly. In the past year I've noticed an improvement in dealing with this particular issue. It's one that I am taking baby steps away from, yet there is quite a strong connection that it's not something I can run away from. Really it wasn't until the past two months that I noticed a big change. I was slowly finding freedom within myself and this new found freedom was elating.
I may have gotten carried away when I decided to take a term off to enjoy this change in my life. Probably not the wisest decision. But at the same time it has been such a long time since I've felt constant contentedness and happiness. The Dean questioned this decision of taking time off. Was very realistic and kind of harsh. But I appreciate it. It made me question my decision of taking the next term off. I still am though I am really leaning towards still taking the term off. No matter what I decided, it's going to be a positive outcome. I'm in a win win situation really.
I've given myself until Friday of next week to figure it out. I have to go to school on Friday anyways cuz we have class. Then I will talk to the administrator and to the Dean and let them know my final decision. Anyways all of this weighed really heavy on my heart and mind yesterday. I was pretty much vegetative. I nourished my soul with a bowl of ice cream (and then got sick cuz I am lactarded :P ) and nourished my body with some freshly made juice. It's funny, since my detox I've been craving fresh juice. It's awesome! I've also had much more energy. Maybe getting quite sick was what my body needed to release what it had to. Who knows.
Well final #2 is coming up in 4 and a half hours. Feeling pretty ready. It's systemic treatment written so all should go well. After I get to study for tomorrow's systemic pathology quiz and then go salsa dancing tonight :) WOO!

Blog title: Lyrics taken from Million Miles by Fuel

I can feel the warmth of the sun on my cheeks...

Actually really it's just a "sunburn" from the tanning beds. Yep I decided to go tanning. Why? Well I've found a way to not have a mini heart attack when the lights go off. I dance... for the entire 4 minutes. They usually play techno so it's kinda fun :) When the lights go off, I stop dancing. Today I tried 5 minutes (only because they don't allow 4minutes and 30 seconds) in the tanning salon and... I look like a lobster. Just my face though. Anyways so I am starting on my base tan. I also did my research and found that mineral based sunscreens aren't carcinogenic compared to their chemically based counterparts. So YAY! Technically this means I don't have to get a base tan and I can just hit the beach whiter then Casper but today I wanted to go tanning after my exam.
This morning was fantastic... ok initially when my alarm rang at 4:30am it wasn't... but at 4:32 it was and I lay in bed for a while listening to my music and dancing in my head. I watched the sun rise from my study area and heard the first bird chirp (the first in the neighborhood). Morning are truly a beautiful thing :) I love them! The exam went well. I've already got my marks back and I got 95% WOO! GOOOOO ME!
Pam and I went for a tan, where I celebrated my victory by dancing for the full 5 minutes. We then went to Safeway to pick up something for lunch and had a pic nick :) Pam told me today that she is moving 9 blocks away from me! That'll be totally awesome! It might also be trouble :P I am so excited!
Maja was there this morning so we made plans for Maui. Hostel and ferry are now booked! We're getting closer! I also bought some mineral sunscreen so really all that is left now is to pack.
Today was such a wonderful day :) I don't know whether it was the sunshine or what it was but I just felt so great. Even the traffic on cambie street didn't matter. I stopped by capers to pick up a few things. I love that place :) It's like the one stop hippy shop! Being it's Earth Day today, they were giving out bags to people who spent more then $25 being I did and had brought my own bag (as I always do... I have used 2 new plastic bags this year!) I gave it to the lady behind me. She didn't have a bag and she had less then $25 worth of stuff. I think sometimes we get caught up in the accumulation of stuff. I don't need an other bag, I've got many pretty reusable bags. So might as well give it to someone who can use it.
Anyways time for me to take a bath, relax and go to sleep early. Tomorrow I study for my systemic treatment final that's on Thursday.

13 hours and counting...

So far I've been studying for 13 hours with only a 30 minute break for lunch/blog, 40 minutes to make cookies (what... I was craving cookies! I can whip up a batch from scratch in less time then it takes my oven to preheat.) and 20 minutes for dinner. With all this studying my brain feels like it's going to explode! Enough mental masturbation for one night I say.
Nope we're not done yet. I want to finish the chapter on Sensory, Motor and Integrative Systems. I have about an hour or so left so I am in the home stretch. This is the hardest part too. The next chapters are a breeze (so I am saving them for 4am). Right now I am studying the section on sleep... and let me tell you! Learning about sleep makes ya want to sleep. I had to read "A person who is awake is in a state of readiness and is able to react consciously to various stimuli." about 5 times before I realized what it said. Ha ha! Looks like I am not awake.
Anyways enough dicking around time to study more! Almost done!

Dreaming of Denmark

Yesterday evening I had the biggest urge to leave for Denmark. Had I of had the money and no finals I probably would have.
Why Denmark? I am not too sure. It captured my heart when I travelled there a while ago. The Danish countryside was so beautiful. I remember looking at the thatched roofs in awe. The homes there are so neat. We stayed at this little B&B by the ocean and we had the most beautiful view. Tivoli was also really really cool! I'd love to go back. There was this roller coaster that was built back when it was WWII and the trees have grown all around the roller coaster, so it's like a roller coaster in a tree! It's also a very classic park. It's reminiscent of the olden days where everything was very classy and elegant.
And of course there was Legoland... we did that more for my brother but it was fun none the less. The danish yogurt that was sold in milk cartons (more like yop but SO MUCH MORE DELICIOUS!). The sand dunes by the sea with sand so fine it felt like cornstarch between your toes. *sigh*
Anyways enough daydreaming. Time to go have lunch and get continue with pain thresholds vs pain tolerance. Yay neuro anatomy! (At least it's interesting).

3 Weeks to Hawaii!

In 3 weeks from now, Maja and I will be sitting on the airplane on our way to Oahu. It's terribly exciting to think that we're getting so close. Sure it may seem like 3 weeks is a long time... however the time is going to fly by! This week we have two finals, a quiz and an assignment along with a bunch of review classes. Next week is our reading week where I am going to study my ass off for finals. And the week after reading week is finals week. A week that contains 8 finals. Eeep!
Well neuro anatomy won't study itself!! I better get to it. That final is in 25 hours.

Word of the day:

HUMPERDINK!

LOL!
I am so deep!

He BLOGGED!!!

YAY! We finally heard from my brother and Dasha today! It was so fantastic to get to read about their experiences. If he just keeps us updated once a week through blog entries, I am going to be very happy. It seems like they're having a great time and that makes me smile. It also reminds me of the freedom that I experienced when I was travelling.
I remember the sleepless nights on the bus, looking at the moon lit landscapes as we drove through the back country of Australia. When you're travelling, sleep is not a priority. You don't want to close your eyes because you're afraid you're going to miss something. I found that even though I didn't sleep, I'd get enough rest travelling by bus overnight. Ah I miss travelling :)
Well enough day dreaming. Time to get my study stuff together, grab the dog and walk around the seawall, stopping occasionally to study and admire the view from the seawall. We live in such a beautiful city! I love it!

I am doing the snow dance!

What the hell is that white stuff falling from the sky?!? All I know is that it's not supposed to be here! It's SPRING not WINTER! WTF! Ok well being it's snowing, it might as well keep dumping and sticking until tomorrow that way I don't have to go to school.

On death and dying

"People who have lived fully are not usually afraid to die. Death is, after all, the natural end of life."

- Unknown

Today's topic in systemic treatment was palliative care. As an introduction to palliative care, Annette, our instructor, had us do a little bit of an exercise. She wrote on the board:

What do dying people need?

With that in mind, we had to say what we thought dying people needed. Everyone participated... drew from personal experiences and shared how they felt we, as therapists, could help those in the end stages of their life.
While we were coming up with the answer to that question, my eyes burnt, my throat was tight and tears threatened to escape my eyes. I could hear others sniffle. One of the girls looked quite red in the face but I didn't have the courage to see whether she was crying. We all sounded strong. We had to be. After all one day we might end up (quite unintentionally sometimes) working with someone who is living their last days.
Here's the list we came up with:

• Having friends and family close by.
• Faith/spirituality.
• Loved one to be taken care of.
• People not to be scared of them.
• Not caring what they look like.
• Celebrate life rather than mourning loss.
• Closure on accomplishments - meeting some of life's goals.
• Hearing about those they care for.
• Laughter and normalcy around them.
• Empathy vs. pity.
• Caring touch.
• Caring people.
• Help with pain.
• Really good food/wine/nutrition.
• Release from feelings/family (not holding back, permission to let go and slip away)
• Surrounded by positiveness.

Once satisfied with our list, Annette erased the word dying with living. The question now read:
What do living people need?
A smile crossed my face. I could see where she was going with this. We went though the list one by one and everything a dying person needs, a living person needs as well. It made me think of whether I am giving myself what I need in order to live and be happy... I think it's important to reflect on these things every once in a while.
This also reminded me of a conversation that I had with a guy who I was on a coffee date with. He had mentioned that he was working a lot and I had asked him if it was a busy time at work (his work has something to do with finances) and he said "My work is based on commission and I'm greedy." I was quite stunned by his answer, paused and said "Oh..." and he continued "Is something wrong with that? In my field there are people who have achieved high numbers and have high ranks. I want to be one of those guys one day." I then pretended to be interested in these high numbers and ranks and such, when really, all that was going thought my mind was "Will these numbers matter when you die? Would you rather achieve "greatness" at work or would you rather live a full and happy life." This wasn't a conversation I'd have with this guy... after all we'd just met and I didn't want to start to challenge his values.
"Will this matter when I die?" is often a question I ask myself when stressing out about things or doing things. "Is this helping me towards my goal?" is an other good question. I then relate the goal to whether it's realistic in creating my personal true happiness or is it just one to mask my feelings.
Anyways all of this is quite interesting and I could go on for longer but I have to study a bit before I head off to do some salsa dancing. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I will have enough energy to do it. Right now I feel like a giant spaghetti (but a very happy spaghetti).

Reassurance

This afternoon one of the chief board examiners came in to talk to us about the oral practicals. Initially I was quite scared about the oral practicals... I mean you're asked to perform a treatment on an examiner with TWO examiners watching you and making you as well. Talk about a scary situation. You also have 90 minutes. That's a 90 minute window that you have the chance to fuck up! Hell it's only your career on the line! Not a big deal right?
Well let me tell you I am SO glad I was there this afternoon! I now have a better idea as to how all of this is going to happen. The examiners are examining us on what we show them not so much on what we tell them. So if we have verbal diarrhea but our hands know what they are doing... then great! They are also going to give us a little bit of time to think about our pathology (thought we will not get a case study... we're going to have to find everything out about the pathology though a history taking portion of the exam which will last 15 minutes... this will also include two special tests that are most appropriate for the pathology in question). We then have 30 minutes to treat the pathology. During that 30 minutes we have to do a full treatment, demonstrate a technique from the following category: Muscle energy, craniosacral, myofascial and sensory stimulation. The examiner doesn't want us to talk though the work that we're doing... we're just supposed to do it. If we want to explain to our guest what we are doing then that's fine. After that all we have to do remedial exercises... one hydrotherapy modality, one stretch, one strength exercise and then one modification to their activities of daily living. Oh we also need to palpate (fancy word for feel) a muscle, trace a nerve (this is scary), find a bony landmark and palpate a pulse. All of this in 90 minutes... Should be manageable.
Anyways I know this is quite the drawn out explanation but I wanted to write this so that before my board exams I can read this over and remind myself that it is not as scary as I may make it. So if I am reading this before board exams... Take a deep breathe, clam down and trust that you have it in your hands and in your heart. The knowledge is in your mind and just relax to access it. Good luck to me!

Today's juice is brought to you by the vegetable spinach

And let me tell you! Spinach is quite good in a juice. Much better then beets. Yesterday the main veggie was beets and I think I over did it a little. I was nauseous most of the day... I don't know whether it was because of the juice or because it was day 2 of detox. Today I am feeling better :)
So far this detox thing is better then I thought it would be. I thought I'd be out of commission for a week (or more... I might do it for longer depending how I feel). I am not doing this for weight loss and hardly ever weigh myself but I am curious to see how much weight I lose, if any at all. Last time I weighed myself I was 165. When I stepped on the scale this AM I was 146! Woah! The only thing I've really changed is that I've become a vegetarian. Since I've switched I've been feeling much healthier. I also have more energy and am happier (this might be a combination of being a veggie and also of taking better care of myself both emotionally and physically).
I am going to start biking to school and so I've been looking around at cruiser bikes. Finally I think I've found one. I've decided to buy a used bike and I think a 3 speed is better then a 1 speed (being Vancouver is quite hilly). The only down side to the bike that I have my eye on, is that it's a men's bike and being it's a men's bike, the top rail thingy is higher. On a women's bike it's lower so that she can wear skirts or dresses and not flash the world. This summer I've decided I am going to wear more skirts and dresses so I am going to have to figure out how to bike without exposing myself. The other down side... it's in delta. So when I pick it up, I will probably have to bike all the way back to Vancouver with it. Oh well, she'll be worth it :)
Anyways time to do a bit of studying before I have to go to my afternoon class. We'll see if I have enough energy to salsa dance tonight. I'll take a nap at school if I gotta!

Detox. Phase 2.

Alright so I am at week 3 of my lovely little detox. This week I've decided to change it up a little... instead of eating as I usually do, I am just going to eat raw fruits and veggies. The first two weeks of detox were just taking these herbal pills and cutting out junk food. That's easy for me as I don't eat junk food. The last week is supposed to be like the first two... but I want to go all out.
Rosie is doing a detox at the same time, however, hers requires that you juice all of your fruits and veggies and then drink 8oz every two hours. I figured that would be a good way to end my detox and being I am kinda inventing as I go along I thought I'd do the same. So today I went out and bought a juicer! I also went to Capers and bought $100 of veggies :) I've got to say... all of those veggies brought so much joy. I don't know why but they made me happy!

*Update: I made my first juice! It had lemon juice, romaine lettuce, apple, carrots, water melon, celery and zucchini. It smelt... green... but tasted delicious!

11 hours and counting

Well the time has finally arrived. My little brother is leaving for 120 days in Europe in approximately 11 hours. Yesterday we had a brother and sister day where we went for bunch and then went shopping for the last few items that he might need (like shoes). It was great to get to hang out with him... it also reminded me that I am going to miss him very very much.
Today I stayed home so that I could be there to give him a hand every once in a while. Being the man he is... he didn't start packing until two hours ago :) that's ok though he seems to have the most of it together.
He's chosen to blog in order to keep everyone updated. Much easier then sending out mass e-mails. I am looking forward to reading about his and Dasha's adventures. Dasha is my brothers girlfriend. They are travelling together. She's a real sweetheart so I think it'll be good for them to travel together. There's no denying it though travelling is the true test for a relationship. Fortunately they're both two strong people so they'll be able to deal with what ever comes their way.
I kinda feel bad for my brother cuz he's getting the "how to" travel from both my Mom and I. Both of us have different ways to travel. Mine being more laid back then Mom's. Hopefully he can find a nice balance... Still Mom's having him bring the currency colostomy bag. She even gave him a demonstration for how it works and explained the ins and outs of it. When I went to Australia, I took one with me but NEVER wore it! I also went against the grain for many things and my trip was unbelievable. Hopefully Stephy will have a similar experience.
Anyways I am going to get up bright and early tomorrow morning because Dasha and Stephy have to be at the airport for 7AM. I remember how awesome it was to have the family wave me off when I left for Australia. It'll be great to be there to wave him off though I can almost guarantee that it'll bring a tear to my eye. Heck I already did today but he doesn't know that :P sshhhh.

**Picture was taken this afternoon. Stephy and I made a banana split with Neapolitan ice cream, mini marshmallows, M&M's, bananas, strawberries, fudge, melted chocolate and sprinkles. Of course Minette wanted in on the food action. The look on her face is priceless.

How to remember information by Jason

So we're writing notes in Neurotreatment class today and at some point and time we all pause because on the board it says:
"Dramatic weight loss elephant"
Ok so you see we're not talking about elephants but rather about Huntingtons Chroea (which has nothing to do with elephants). So we asked our teacher why it said elephant on the board and he says:
"Because I am putting random words on the board so you can remember the information later on."
We all had a good laugh.

No more nights out on school nights!

I am sure I've said it before but that was the thought that crossed my mind this morning. Yesterday I had my first salsa dancing class in the first time in a few months and being it started 7, I went to the library and studied a little bit. Two things I discovered while at the library.

1. Holy hotness! There are many good looking guys at the library! Makes for good eye candy while studying :)
2. Homeless people hang out there too! There was one who smelt awful and he was... well he wasn't reading but rather he was removing books and putting them elsewhere. Basically shuffling the books around. Honestly I'd rather see him doing that then doing other stuff on the street. He's part of the job creation program at the library!

Salsa dancing was good fun. My feet remembered what to do and I was able to dance with the instructor and he gave me really good feedback. Essentially all I need to do is keep firmer arms so that I am easier to lead. I've also realized that my poor feet have got to get used to high heels again!
While at the library, Darla had sent me a text message asking if I was still planning on going to Chill Winston that evening. I'd forgotten about it until that text message and I still wanted to salsa dance so I went after dancing. It was great to hang out with the girls from my old class. They're on break right now :) lucky bums! I am pretty tickled cuz the girls asked me to make a grad cake for them! How awesome is that! So now it's time to think up something ultra cool ad special for their grad cake. It'll also be good practice for making Darla's wedding cake. I've never done any special events cake so this is all new to me.
I wasn't tired after meeting up with the girls so Andrew and I met up and hung out around coal harbour and watched the city lights. It was neat cuz we saw Grouse Mountain turn off it's lights. Did you know that at midnight they turn their lights off... Yep they do!
I got home at about 3am cuz buses are stupid and it takes forever to get home. On my way home though I got to listen to a very intelligent conversation. I was on the bus, listening to this guy's conversation (cuz what else do you do on the bus?) and he was telling his buddy how the next tattoo he wants is a vagina "meat curtains and all" tattooed to the back of his knee. Why in the back of his knee? So when he bends and straightens his knee, it looks like the vag is moving. It was hard not to smile and chuckle a bit. People are REALLY creative (and stupid). I hope he's not thinking that he's going to pick up some chicks with this vag behind his knee.

Bring on the finals!

Alright so we're less then two weeks away from finals and... I am slightly nervous. On the plus side, finals are quite scattered this term. Being we finished NeuroAnatomy ahead of schedule that final will be before the reading break. Our systemic treatment final written will be before the reading break and the oral practical will be after the reading break. This reading break will be a saviour! I am looking forward to taking the time to organize my notes and study my little ass off. I haven't done as well as I could have this term. Well there are only two classes that have me slightly concerned. I am pretty sure I'll pass both though.
I've already finished buying cloths for Hawaii. Being none of my summer cloths fit me anymore I had to get more :) awe shucks! Not only that... the last boyfriend was a capri destroyer. It was worth it though *grin* So really I just need to pack.
During reading break (or before) I will start job hunting that way I can hopefully have a job lined up for when I return. Initially I was going to work in Mom's office. They had/have a position open for temp work at $18 an hour. Though they money is appealing. I really want to be outside this summer. So I am thinking of getting a landscaping job. Workin' with the boys :) I also want to learn to drive.
I've found that meeting/dating guys who are "tree huggers" means they don't drive (well not many of them do anyways). The thing is, I want to keep hiking, camping, surfing, travelling and it's quite hard to do without a car. So I am gonna learn to drive in case I end up with a tree hugging boyfriend that doesn't drive. Why am I looking for a tree hugger of a boyfriend then? Well they're very open minded, outdoorsy, caring and passionate which are all things that I am looking for. Whether they drive or not, doesn't matter :)
Anyways I should study for the NeuroTreatment exam that I have tomorrow. Tonight I'm going salsa dancing so I won't have time to study! Youpii! And yes, I've started taking salsa dancing lessons again! I'm taking a few beginner lessons until the intermediate ones start up in May. I am so stoked!

More to ponder

Without feminism, there would be no girls in short skirts with bare midriffs and no intelligent women with whom to discuss the meaning of modern drama. Without feminism, there would be only wives and whores and maidens, and no glorious mixture of all three. In every city, they should name a square after Gloria Steinem, and in this square should be a statue (equestrian perhaps) of Germaine Greer. Feminism has made love, or something like it, possible.

“Raymond and Hannah” - by Stephen Marche

I feel a strange connection to the floor cuz it's the only thing supporting me

After a rough day at school, Pam and I set off to the Sweet Soul Design sale. On our way we were talking about how being single almost requires having a vibrator. We just so happened to be walking by two guys when I said "We should go buy vibrators!"... heck I wasn't paying attention to who was around. The guy then says "Vibrators! That's hot!". Ha ha woops :) Anyways it'll give him something to talk about.
For the rest of the evening, Pam and I tried on many cute outfits and spent more then we should have. I ended up buying two Brazilian style bikinis. They are SO teenie! But they look good. They make me look good too :) AND they were $30 each! Fucking rights!
We then went to the Cascade Room and solved the worlds problems over good food and drinks. She was in awe that I didn't know what I was going to do after I graduate and become an RMT. I've come to the realization that opening a business isn't wise when you don't have experience in the field. It's still a dream though I won't give up on that one. So she asked me what I wanted to do... I thought for a while and then remembered Greece... I've always wanted to live in Greece for a while and I think it would be awesome to work as a massage therapist there. So that'll be what I am going to do :)
I came home and took a nice warm mud bath. It was so nice to vegetate for a while and bask in my happiness. It's fantastic I am so happy lately. Just everything I do makes me happy. Ok not everything. The only time I am unhappy is when I am at school. I am happy in clinic. So that says something. Anyways it's nice :) My heart is smiling. The biggest thing I've changed is I've been doing what I want to do. I am starting salsa dancing on Thursday :)

*Entry title: Lyrics from Save the Day by Pacifika.

Overthinking things

Hawaii is in about 30 days and I've started to think about getting ready for my trip. One of these things would include getting a base tan to prevent burning when I first expose myself to the sun. On Sunday Darla (who is leaving for Cuba in less then a week) and I went to the tanning salon. As I was in the tanning booth I was thinking of how stupid all of this is. Here I am exposing myself to some really strong radiations. This could cause premature skin aging and possibly skin cancer. So why am I in there? And what's worse? Being exposed by these tanning lights or going to Hawaii and getting burnt? And why am I so concerned about getting brunt? Well I hardly ever wear sunscreen because sunscreen in it's original form is fine and not carcinogenic but when it's exposed to heat, there are some chemical changes that occur making the sunscreen carcinogenic. So what do I do? I gradually expose myself to sunshine, building up my tolerance naturally. Last time in Maui I was whiter then the sand and because I was so white, I wore sunscreen. Still I burnt. Anyways I am over thinking all of this but I'd like to know what's the safest way to go about this.

Things that have made me smile today:
Watching a mother keep her baby daughter entertained on the bus with a paper towel. The baby then wanting to put the paper towel in her mouth, the mother pulling it away from her mouth and the baby quickly putting it back. This went back and forth for a while and it was quite amusing to watch.
While on the skytrain, I was sitting next to a Dad and his son. We were between Main street and Stadium station at the windy part when the little kid smiled and said "wheeee... the next station is... what's the next station Dad.". Damn it was so cute. Kids are so care free.

Feelings that I experience in Spinal Treatment

This is when I figure out what the hell we are talking about.

And this is the rest of the time.

Fuck this class tests my patience. Especially when I've had two and a half hours of sleep and drank the night before.

Dysfunctional Studying

Alright so here's the deal! There was going to be a bunch of people at my place tonight and being I have to study I decided to go to Pam's and crash there and study with her. So we picked up a bottle of wine to ease our study pains and some dude picked us up from the skytrain (he's a friend of Pams). The bottle of wine is pretty much gone and so is Pam and so is the dude. I am sitting here drunk, alone, in her room. Thinking oops! So do I care? No. I have a book open and I am reading over the notes. This could be fun. Drunk, in your friends room, studying, knowing that she's probably in his car gettin her groove on. Damn. And yeah she's been gone for a while so I finished the wine. I hope she doesn't mind. Hee hee!

What?! What's up with that?

Ok so as I said in my previous post, I will be in Maui in 39 days. Well as much as Maui is going to be one hell of a good time I am going to miss THREE... That's ONE, TWO, THREE!!! concerts! So who's coming to town?
On May 18th Lilly Come Down will be playing at the Radha Eatery. On the 21st of May City and Colour will be playing the Orpheum Theatre. On the 22nd of May Beirut will be playing at the Commodore Ballroom.
In other news: The Canucks need to win their next (and last) two games so that they can make the playoffs. Though I am still cheering for them, I think they're too unreliable to stay in the playoffs this year. Maybe it's best that they start their golf season early and just take it easy. Most importantly Luongo should get home to his little wifey and daughter and spend time with them. It's quite apparent that he's got other things on his mind. A new baby girl is a good excuse to be tired. Also Kesler's and his wifey are awaiting a baby girl as well (unless she's already born) so he'll have his head up his arse too cuz he'll want to be home with his girls.

Trying to kick the sick.

It's been a week since I've had this darn cold and I am starting to get tired of it!
Last week on Wednesday Joy and I were at Capers picking something up for dinner when I saw this ginger, lemon and honey mixture. I mentioned that would be a pretty awesome drink to have if you had a cold. While tidying up after my clinic shift on Thursday I'd thought that it had been a while since I had been sick. I was proud of my immune system for being as strong as it's been.
When I got home, I noticed that I had an itchy throat. I went to bed early. I woke up with a really sore throat and proceeded to be barfy, sneezy and miserable at school on Friday. Shit! Well I can't say that my body didn't warn me! I've spent most evenings watching movies (I rented 6 on Friday) and trying to get better. I didn't miss much school except for one spinal treatment class.
Being it's been beautiful outside so I've walked around Stanley Park twice in the past week in hopes that the fresh air will make my cold go away.
I bought two CD's Beirut: The Flying Club Cup and City and Colour: Bring me your love. Both are AMAZING! And have been on repeat since I got them on Sunday. Good thing CDs don't wear out!
Paul and I went to the states on Monday to do a little bit of shopping and to just get away from the city. I am so fortunate to be good friends with him. Having someone there that I can talk to and be comfortable around is really priceless.
I started a detox two days ago (internal spring cleaning! YAY) but am now throwing caution to the wind and making a huge batch of brownies cuz I need some good old comfort food.
39 days to Maui... 4 weeks until finals. I could go for some cuddles.

To my girls

What can I say... if it wasn't for my girls, there's no way that I could get though what I do. They're a great source of laughter and smiles on days when things aren't going so great. They make good days better and they're just so great to have around. I came to this realization on Tuesday while walking to clinic with Pam and Joy and we had somehow gotten on the topic of where would be the sexiest place to have sex.
I'd always thought that having sex against the glass of a floor to ceiling window in a skyscraper would be totally hot. Both of them both said they weren't too sure about a fantasy like that cuz the glass might break sending my partner and I plummeting to our death at the poor passer bys below. And if that wasn't bad enough, I would probably get disowned by my family because I'd be found splat on the ground, naked with a guy still inside me. In unison Pam and I said "At least I'd die happy!"
Only your good girl friends can poke fun at your fantasies like that :) It was so great to have such a laugh with the girls then work in clinic. There we shared experiences that are unique to where we were in that time and place. Being the women are graduating from the program this week, the center is filled with this wonderful energy and being we've been working with them for 5 weeks, the things that they share with us is absolutely amazing. We have to stay strong in front of the women, but in private, we're able to break down and talk to each other about how proud we are of these women and their progress. Yeah it's hard to describe without giving too much away (client privacy...).
Then yesterday I went for lunch with Maja and Pam. We were the trio back when I was in the other class (also the trio that went to Maui together). It was so fantastic to have lunch and catch up on what's been going on in our lives.
Pam and I were being goofy and then she says while laughing "We're like Beavis and Butt-face!" LOL I love Pam! She's hilarious. And yeah I reminded her it was Butt-head and not Butt-face.

Look Ma! I can touch my head with my feet!

During Orthopedic Treatment, Pam and I discovered that we could touch our face with our feet. We're so flexible :)