Going cross eyed...

Too much studying... I still don't particularly understand A&P but I've been trying my best. Ive been lugging around Big Red (my A&P textbook) everywhere I go... I've been studying and I think I've been studying too much. I've been quizzing myself and one of the questions was: In the absorptive stage of metabolism what is the hormone that initially starts working. I put glucose. stupid me glucose isn't even a hormone! Glucose is the simplest form of sugar. Oh well! Anyways I've just studied all the way through neuropathology class... which kinda sucks cuz next neuropath class we have a midquarter... luckily that's on Saturday and being my A&P mid term is tomorrow morning and I don't have class afterwards, I can catch up then. Oh boy! Now I can squeeze in a few more hours of studying before clinic at 6 then early to bed so I can be up early tomorrow am. The weekend was great, I'll blog about that later :) Going to work and studying hung over though is NOT something I want to do over again.

Perfect Birthday

Wow I'm still amazed as to what a wonderful birthday I had. It started at 1:30am when Minette woke me up because she left a little present in my room. A barf! Yay thanks hun :) Morning was low key, the whole family was there and mum reminisced about the morning I was born (I was born at 7:38am and was NOT a happy camper... I cried and cried).
On my way to school, there was a gorgeous sunrise and it was a beautiful morning... cold and crisp. I saw the moon set which was quite pretty as well. I had systemic pathology class in the morning... most people didn't remember my birthday at school but that's ok because I didn't make too big of a fuss about it because I don't like being fussed over.
I met Mum and Steph for lunch which was great. While I was in Oakridge mall, I figured I'd go see my old orthodontist because I am tired of my upper lingual brace. She was just leaving but was happy to see me so she decided to do a check up. Only the two receptionists, my brother, Dr. Mills and I were in the office, it was different. She took out the pics of when I first went to see her... October 31st 1994! I've had retainers & braces for 13 years! I've had this upper lingual brace for 6... so I think it's time for it to go and my teeth should stay in place. If they move it's $250 for an other lingual brace (but the high tech one, I have the old school version... technology!).
I decided to treat myself and I picked up two pairs of gloves and a scarf (still need wrist warmers...) from the Gap. What was the best part about this was that I had a gift certificate so it was free! Thanks Telus! I decided to take advantage of my Body Shop birthday discount and picked up a few things there.
Steph and I then walked home, packed up the penny collection and off to the bank I went. $35 in pennies! Then off to the post office to send Frank gloves (who lives in Hawaii where they don't sell gloves but he needs them for work), then to pick up Mum at work. We got back in time for hockey :) The Canucks won (3-2) against the Capitals and Pyatt (my fave Canuck) scored 2 out of the 3 goals!
We had dinner as a family... Mum made gyoza which were amazing! I hadn't had them in a year or so! Being it wasn't planned that I'd be home, there was no birthday cake or presents (we were supposed to celebrate on Sunday) so we went out for Gelato at La Cassa Gelato. They had 218 flavors ranging from wasabi to peach plum jasmine. There was even a curry flavor! Anyways I had lemon and black forest cake gelato. It was nontraditional and great.
I wanted to play cards once I got home but was too tired and being I am fighting off a cold I decided to go to bed. I didn't manage to study for my Neuropathology quiz but oh well. I've done the quiz already this morning and I got 9.5 out of 10. Yay!
Anyways I was really happy with my birthday! It was productive and I spent some time with my family. I got many phone calls from Grand Parents and friends wishing my a happy birthday. Today so far has been great, I'm looking forward to celebrating Maja's birthday this evening (after school and clinic). Tomorrow work and birthday cake, Monday work (though if I can get out of it, I will because I have a midterm in A&P on Wednesday that I really have to study A LOT for it) and celebrate my birthday with friends.

Where is the silence?

I think it's left the house. I just sat down to study and I am finding it way too loud. My dad's stomping around (because he stomps around and slams thing... in a gentle giant kind of way) listening to techno upstairs. There's no particular way to get away from this (in the house, I'd have to go to a coffee shop, sadly I have the attention span of a gnat and I easily get distracted by things and strangers).
It was nice to have all of today off... no work, no school, no clinic. I did all the exciting things that one usually does on their day off. Clean their bedroom, living room, study area, bathroom, do laundry, go to the gym then watch an hour of TV. Again tonight I am going to go to bed early. This extra sleep is doing me a world of good.
Lately I've found that I've been forgetting words. I don't think I've been hit on the head lately... but my sentences are making less and less sense. So is the flow of my writing (as some of you may have noticed). This has me a little bit concerned. It's been going on for some time but Dad actually mentioned something about it earlier this evening. Anyways it's something that I'll have to bring up next time I go to my naturopaths. Maybe it's just brain over load making me forget the simple things.
On the bright side, my brother and I have started working out together. I was able to do all of the exercises that the personal trainer put together for me. It'll be good to have someone to hit the gym with. Craig is often working or in Kelowna and Eric... well he hasn't been with me yet but I keep trying.
Tomorrow's my birthday and I have to keep reminding myself that. Earlier today, I was trying to remember "what that important thing was that I had to do tomorrow". Oh yeah! Enjoy myself. I have class in the morning, a few hours to kill (homework possibly) in the afternoon and then Darla and I are going to watch the game and chill out for a bit.

I guess I needed that.

Wow I feel so much better! I feel so good that I voluntarily stayed in Neuro Treatment 400 class to see what they were doing and take notes. Sure I don't have this class until next term but it was good to sit in. I feel content and this is a damn nice feeling to have... one that hasn't been around for a long time and I am glad it's back.

I almost hybernated!

Yesterday was a particularly uneventful day. I had my first class of pharmacology and second class of neuroanatomy. I think pharmacology will be interesting, however we're not focusing as much on natural medicines as I would have liked. Natural medicines are becoming more and more popular and I think it would be beneficial to learn about them. In my own time I guess.
Anyways for some reason I was unhappy... I am not too sure why but I found myself a little on the grouchy side. Possibly the lack of sleep, I don't know. Being I actually had to interact with people for more then 5 minutes, I decided that this was not acceptable and I was going to go home and have a nap. My nap turned into 13 hours of sleep... I must have really needed it. I feel refreshed this morning, however slightly nauseated, possibly because I missed dinner (Dad came down to tell me it was dinner time, I told him to go away... Sorry Dad.). I guess I must have needed the sleep. At some point during the night it seemed like I had a fever. Then I felt like I was going to throw up... All this was probably just my body trying to tell me to stay in bed.
I had awesome dreams though. I dreamt that my cousin Nadine and I went to this fair and they had elephant races. Yeah elephant races... anyways Nadine and I were the people on the elephants racing them. It turns out that my elephant liked to play with things so we didn't get too far. Nadine's elephant wouldn't do the obstacles in order so he was disqualified. After the elephant race, Darla, Maja and Eric showed up and lined up for roller coasters. As soon as it was our turn to ride, we'd leave and talk about how fun that line up was and how it was better then the other line ups we were in (could this be a reflection as to how boring my life has become).
Monday I had an appointment at the Naturopath's and my homework was to have at least 30 minutes of fun a day. So it turns out I am not having fun these days. I hadn't really thought about it but I guess it's true. I thought going to the gym was fun, but they say it doesn't count. "Do something that leaves you laughing and happy inside." First thing I thought of was sex but that's out of the question.... then I had a bit of trouble thinking of what I thought was fun. I like swimming, but it doesn't leave me laughing. Salsa dancing as well... at least there I'm smiling when I'm done. Yoga, going for walks, taking pictures. Frank suggested that I go for a walk and take pictures...
Anyways I'll figure something out. Now it's time to get ready for school... It's the last class of A&P before the final, we have 20 pages of biochem to do still and some review... it's beyond me how we're going to do it but I am going in with an open mind (and a rested one too).

Nuttin' new...

Feelin' the same as my last blog post... really can't shake this one. Otherwise nothing new, work work work school school school.
It was cool today I was decorating many cakes (8 hours worth... so lots of cakes) and there were a few customers watching me. There was this one couple that started cheering when I put the last strawberry on a fruit flan (those take a LONG time... and A LOT of patience). It was cute because they had watched me decorate a few cakes and they were my little cheer team. It made me smile.
There might be some interesting news on my project, but I don't know if I can share that with people yet.... Stay tuned ;)

WARNING: The following post contains sexual content.

When dealing with loss, there are five steps that one goes through. Denial, bargaining, anger, despair, acceptance. When breaking up with someone, those steps are quite similar but there are some changes. Here are the ones that I have experienced. Denial, cuddle with drawl, loneliness, acceptance, feelin' frisky. I'm now finding myself at the later stage. It's been two days and I haven't been able to shake the feeling (possibly because nothing has been done about it). One particular situation comes to mind and I wouldn't mind re-enacting this one.
On a day not much different from any other, I found myself feeling rather aroused (I was at home doing homework, this wasn't the trigger) so I text messaged my boyfriend at the time, who was at work: "I want to evoke such passion in you that will leave us both breathless." Needless to say, a text message like that did trigger a response in my partner and we agreed to meet right after he finished work. A few hours later, there was a knock at the door and as soon as that door swung open, we didn't say a word, we just kissed passionately for a few minutes and made our way to my room. He was gently pushed him onto my bed and then took off my sweatshirt to reveal one of my sexy corsets (oh and me too). Anyways I'll leave the rest out because you can imagine what happened after that. It was hot, passionate and really fucking sexy. And that's just about what I need right now. Bah! Anyways being I am not one for booty calls or friends with benefits so I am just going to go to bed with my anatomy and physiology book and try to figure out some more biochem stuff. Maybe that will keep my mind off certain urges and I'll be able to go to sleep.