Yeah, I just saw Moulin Rouge for the I don't know how manyth time. It's still as great as the first time... if not better. I've seen it so many times now that it doesn't make my cry (unless I'm PMSing... but then everything makes me cry) but it still leaves my heart aching. Funny how movies can do that. It also leaves me wanting to cuddle. Heck I always want to cuddle. More so now I guess.
Yesterday was the time again for more shenanigans at the Railway club. Initially a bunch of us were supposed to go out but being it's exam time and late on a Sunday, Pam and I were the only two that ended up going... and man what a fun night it was last night.
After swapping massages and an amazing dinner (yes, truly amazing... salmon, prawns, green beans, wild rice and Alsatian apple tart) we got ready to go the the Railway club. Here is discovered the brilliance of a diffuser! I'd never blow dry my hair because I would look like I stuck my finger in an electrical socket. Not the look I am going for. But shit... you put a diffuser on a blow dryer and like magic... you get gorgeous curls... I love having curly hair (when you know what to do with it).
Anyways we made our way to the Railway club. Eric had said to get there early because it's often busy. All the times I went there... there were people but I wouldn't say it was busy. Tonight it was! It was so packed, you had to squirm between people to get past. After about 10 steps, this is when I noticed the majority of the people there were women. By majority I mean I counted two guys. Then I noticed the poster behind the stage which read "Positive Women's Network" and Pam whispered something to me along the lines of something feminist. By this time, Pam and I were having a great time. Both of us were rather drunk, the music was great and all these ladies were so friendly.
I noticed that quite a few ladies had short hair... some were cuddling and even kissing. That's when the light went on. As if on cue, the singer introduced her next song. It was called Spaghetti Girl. Then she went on to ask the crowd if they knew what a spaghetti girl was. Most women replied no, while a few laughed. She went on to explain that a spaghetti girl was... a spaghetti girl is a straight girl "straight until you get them wet." :) The song was great too! Something about if your man don't mind something something... I was too drunk to get most of it or remember the name of the artist. Anyways so Pam and I were probably the only two spaghetti girls in the entire place.
The night went on and we met some pretty cool ladies. We found out that this is a yearly event that the Positive women's network puts on to raise funds for women in the gay community living with aids. The music was great! There were so many different artists (most went on for two or three songs) that it was impossible to catch a name or anything like that. Eventually Lauren met up with us and we had a glass of wine with her (well I didn't... I know my limit and I'd reached it). It was great to catch up with her! She then drove Pam and myself to Pam's place where we helped one of her roommates study for his Accounting final that he had today. In hind sight he probably wanted to kick us out of his room... two drunk girls taking over his books and helping him answer his review questions. But oh well.
This morning wasn't too rough... but I am feeling rather sore. Not too sure why. Having seen Steve and Josh (Pam's roommates) study so much it gave me anxiety because I have finals too. Pam kept reminding me that I had a reading week but that still didn't stop me from only having 4 hours of sleep before leaving her place to go back to mine to study. Damn... it's like a disease.
Compassion and the Vagus nerve... this is an assignment that I've been avoiding for... 3 months now. I've read the articles many times and they still don't make sense. I feel like the squirrel from ice age chasing it's acorn! Sometimes 
Sure it makes sense that it would be related. After all the vagus nerve does innervate the heart, lungs and stomach (along with other things but these are the main organs) all of which are organs that come into play when emotions are involved. 
Scared - rate of breath increases, nervous - rate of breath increases, heart broken - heart aches... but then they go an throw in the polyvagal theory and other shit in there that has me really freaking confused!
Ah heck! I should stop blogging and keep wracking my brain. So far I've been working on this assignment for two hours tonight and I've managed to semi answer one question. I still don't think I'm on the right track but hell.
Yet an other upside to my new study area... it's right under the piano! Dad is playing Christmas music right now :) Normally I'd say it's too early for Christmas music. But it's just snowed and it's Dad who's playing so it's ok.
I'll keep writing my papers all while enjoying the music and my rooibos tea. I'm still working on my first assignment... I've gotten caught up in the research aspect of it! It's really neat. I'm researching maternal vitamin and mineral supplements, high potency vitamin and mineral supplements, oral contraceptives - specifically Diane-35 - and pessary contraceptives - specifically the NuvaRing - and the effects or modifications to massage therapy.
As a break from studying I went to the gym with Eric. We both parted ways to get changed and once I was out of my snowsuit and into my gym wear I took a look around the gym to see if Eric was there. I couldn't find him but there was a mighty fine looking guy stretching on the mats. Sweet! Eye candy! I finished putting my things away, took a glance back at the guy on the mat before heading to the cardio machines and... well if it wasn't Eric. :) Well I guess somethings never change.
Must have been the new haircut (which I knew about but my goldfish like memory must have forgotten about).
Actually the weather outside is amazing (that's the view I have from my study area)! It's the mass of papers that is frightful really. I've been working on the multitude of assignments that are often due the week before finals. So far so good. None down (but many started) 5 more to go.
The snow is amazing! I want to out and play in it. I promised myself that if I was done all of my assignments before I see my client tomorrow I can spend the rest of the day playing in the snow. I am hoping to go snow shoeing but we'll have to wait and see about that. Not many people have Monday off except for Paul. Mind you I'd really like to go with Paul cuz then we get to bring Teako with us too. Ah I'll give him a call later.
Speaking of Paul. Yesterday we went to Uncle Steve & Auntie Marcy's place and their place was all decorated for Christmas and it was ultra sno
wy out there. It reminded me of the time we celebrated the November/December birthdays last year. It was such a great time spent with family and Paul and Teako were there too. I remembered taking a walk with Teako and Paul after dinner and running in the snow and laughing at our goofy dog. It was amazing. The snow covered everything and no one was out... just Paul, Teako and myself enjoying the snow and the evening. It's amazing how quiet things are when it's snowing.
Last night we also talked about Christmas and what it's going to look like this year (dinner at Uncle Steve and Auntie Marcy :) ) and I was reminded of the anxiety I had two years back when I spent my first Christmas with Paul. I didn't know how I could include both families. In the end it worked out fantastically. Our family celebrates mostly on Christmas eve and his on Christmas day. It was great spending time with both families. The traditions were differe
nt but they were great none the less. His family is very easy going and welcoming as well. It was really neat cuz last year on Christmas eve day we went up to Grouse for a sleigh ride and to go ice skating. It was quite stormy so we got stuck up on the Mountain for quite a few hours (I am tempted to say 5 or so but it may have been less... or more). I think we finally got down at 11 or so at night. His Mom was pretty embarrassed but I thought it was great!
Anyways I can't help but feeling like this Christmas will be a bit lonelier then the others but it'll be ok. I'm really looking forward to the 22nd. That's my last exam then I've got two weeks off. I'm also looking forward to curling up in front of the fireplace with a blanket and a nice glass of wine and just unwinding.
Ok enough day dreaming time to keep going with these papers. They don't write themselves!
